failing

sometimes things get so overwhelming but I still feel that if I try doing what is important for ME I will be a bad person and a bad friend. I want to say NO and I can't. I need to say NO but I still can't.

I am completely overwhelmed now, and I wish my friends would understand. But perhaps this is about growth, it's about me being able to make them understand. Maybe doing this will make me more of a grown-up. Or maybe it will just make me a bad person and a bad friend.

I don't think I can do it.