Chance and Faith

our conversations are still so much the same as when we just bumped into each other in the corridors

I'm sticking with you

I'm not sure why, maybe 'cos I'm made out of glue.

love

I am so happy to know you're happy...
Now I can be truly free.

you're good!

Best reply EVER! If my mobile had a print screen device, I'd stick this on my wall.

Now shut up, before you get me in trouble.

secret handshake

I am telling myself I don't want a relationship, and then I go and over-react like that. Because it's so easy to get along with you – and I don't know what the hell I'm going to do if I actually start liking you.

I would prefer feeling blasé.

You know, I'm mad too. And I am actually right. 

But I don't care. I just wish things would go back to normal.

failing

sometimes things get so overwhelming but I still feel that if I try doing what is important for ME I will be a bad person and a bad friend. I want to say NO and I can't. I need to say NO but I still can't.

I am completely overwhelmed now, and I wish my friends would understand. But perhaps this is about growth, it's about me being able to make them understand. Maybe doing this will make me more of a grown-up. Or maybe it will just make me a bad person and a bad friend.

I don't think I can do it.

you gotta have faith

I try to stay with other guy..seems like a study ....
New body, new smile, my heart ,my pulse, my fluids,chemistry..
And the conclusion from Measurement, Statistics and Methodological Studies ...
It´s that nobody can help me to change the situation..
I just need time.

"Before this river becomes an ocean. Before you throw my heart back on the floor .Oh, baby I reconsider my foolish notion .Well, I need someone to hold me .But I'll wait for something more ."
and George Michael knows what I´m talking about.

jealousy

It crept up upon me suddenly yesterday. Then I fell asleep with this twisted, ugly creature, I woke up with it, and it is following me around now. It whispers nasty things in my ear. It mocks me for everything I do, everything I believe in, everything I am, it even mocks me for allowing it to creep up in the first place. It is a lingering thought lurking on the back of my mind, and it isn't a pretty one. It is a little nausea on the back of my stomach which obeys the lurking ugly feeling, acting as its bitter little minion.

I have known this sick little creature quite well, for a long time. I usually manage to keep my reactions to it under control, sort of, but my disgust for it always shows in my face. I hadn't seen it for a while, and for that while I felt truly free – I didn't miss it at all. It is back now, and I didn't see it coming.

I am punishing you for fooling yourself. You should know better.

You have made your point. Please go away now.