tamer

it's not a graveyard, it's a storybook.

You are always leaving

and somehow, never really arriving.

that's what you get when you let your heart win

and I'm proved right, as always. fuck.

my own dragons

The prize is as high as it gets. So I must, I WILL conquer this.

Meanwhile... wake up, now.

because you never gave me flowers

oh, not I, I ..I´ll survive..
now get off my damn lawn..

I was thinking about your dragon, and thought that if my pain was an animal it would probably be something tiny and letal in a pathetic way. Like a bug or a warm. And your advise about not letting it grow is great, but I'm not taking that part on advises.

i swear i'm not complaining...

...but i kinda miss myself by myself.

Reminder

Don't waste so much time thinking about your pain (that's how the dragon grew) and spend more time thinking of what you can change in you, and not in others (that's how you learned to swim in the sea). And it's never a bad idea to ask for advises.

Worms

Every time we meet, I end up with a bad feeling... And I have no idea why.

ridiculously

I just want to tell you pretty stuff all the time!
You even make me wanna say BIG stuff, that i still find hard to believe that i am believing.
I breathe deep and i don't say it out loud...

...and you smile when i kiss you.

i won´t say..but

please, don´t go.
please.

descending

I can see the downfall.
I don't know whether you were asking about the real issue or something silly. And for the first time I felt uncomfortable talking to you.


Shit.

flying

I mentioned you and smiled. My friend laughed at me, then became serious and told me to be careful: "the higher you climb, the harder you fall."

I've never been the type who's afraid of heights. Should I be?
I am starting to get scared of something going wrong. It's almost too good to be true.
Just remembered how someone told me of a kind of bird that can fly higher than the others. If I told you which one, you would laugh...

...And now I'm smiling again.

I'm just desparate over the phone, because I think it's fashionably dramatic.

game over.

How can i say that i don´t love you anymore?I have anything to give to you.
Don´t you realize yet?
I should draw? make a hai kai?

I hate you
as the vampire
hates the sun


Get out of my life,idiot...and don´t you come back no more.

trouble

my bed is boring without you.

nosferatu

I feel like I should be more scared than I am.
But that's it. I'm opening the window and inviting you into my world.

Chance and Faith

our conversations are still so much the same as when we just bumped into each other in the corridors

I'm sticking with you

I'm not sure why, maybe 'cos I'm made out of glue.

love

I am so happy to know you're happy...
Now I can be truly free.

you're good!

Best reply EVER! If my mobile had a print screen device, I'd stick this on my wall.

Now shut up, before you get me in trouble.

secret handshake

I am telling myself I don't want a relationship, and then I go and over-react like that. Because it's so easy to get along with you – and I don't know what the hell I'm going to do if I actually start liking you.

I would prefer feeling blasé.

You know, I'm mad too. And I am actually right. 

But I don't care. I just wish things would go back to normal.

failing

sometimes things get so overwhelming but I still feel that if I try doing what is important for ME I will be a bad person and a bad friend. I want to say NO and I can't. I need to say NO but I still can't.

I am completely overwhelmed now, and I wish my friends would understand. But perhaps this is about growth, it's about me being able to make them understand. Maybe doing this will make me more of a grown-up. Or maybe it will just make me a bad person and a bad friend.

I don't think I can do it.

you gotta have faith

I try to stay with other guy..seems like a study ....
New body, new smile, my heart ,my pulse, my fluids,chemistry..
And the conclusion from Measurement, Statistics and Methodological Studies ...
It´s that nobody can help me to change the situation..
I just need time.

"Before this river becomes an ocean. Before you throw my heart back on the floor .Oh, baby I reconsider my foolish notion .Well, I need someone to hold me .But I'll wait for something more ."
and George Michael knows what I´m talking about.

jealousy

It crept up upon me suddenly yesterday. Then I fell asleep with this twisted, ugly creature, I woke up with it, and it is following me around now. It whispers nasty things in my ear. It mocks me for everything I do, everything I believe in, everything I am, it even mocks me for allowing it to creep up in the first place. It is a lingering thought lurking on the back of my mind, and it isn't a pretty one. It is a little nausea on the back of my stomach which obeys the lurking ugly feeling, acting as its bitter little minion.

I have known this sick little creature quite well, for a long time. I usually manage to keep my reactions to it under control, sort of, but my disgust for it always shows in my face. I hadn't seen it for a while, and for that while I felt truly free – I didn't miss it at all. It is back now, and I didn't see it coming.

I am punishing you for fooling yourself. You should know better.

You have made your point. Please go away now.

Mirrors

Sometimes when I'm lying alone in bed, there's another girl here. It's not any of the other girls, is actually a copy of myself. But this copy acts just like (what I think) I'm suppose to act like.

I try to figure out what would have to be different in my life for me to be this other (better?) girl. Until I realize that if I were to be like this, I wouldn't be myself so much anymore.

And then I don't think you would love me. And trying to be sure of that, I go to sleep.

recurrent dreams

nothing changes that much.

blind leading the blind

Nobody knows what they're doing, after all.
I talked to someone who seemed so well-adjusted and confident, and it turns out she has the exact same paranoias and insecurities and questions as me.

I can't decide whether this is a good or a bad thing.

zumbi

every time I enter somewhere ... I search for things to try to defend myself from zumbis...
my life goes so annoying that I won´t even use a teddy bear to try to reverse the situation.

the devil's playground

I fancy myself an independent (and independent-minded) person. But when there is no one on my mind, I quickly and inappropriately "create" someone to fill that void. I will take a random guy and bestow on him an importance that he didn't earn and probably wouldn't be rewarded with if circumstances were different (that is, if I had someone else occupying my mind). I will take some guy with whom I have very little in common (just because he's cute, or whatever), and fantasise about him, and hope he likes me, and wonder if he's thinking of me, and thus he will take over and occupy my mind whenever it is idle.

Why can't I just occupy my mind with work, or study, or philosophy or science or art, or anything that doesn't involve a random man?

This habit pisses me off.

longing

I feel like I miss something, so much and so deeply, and yet I have no idea what it is.

My PMS is getting weirder and weirder.

prove me wrong

just do that, please. I hate having to live with my fears.

comprehension

I was hoping you would understand me. I am a tiny bit disappointed, who would've thought!!
But I have to say I am very happy with the kissing, and you are very cute. And I can understand myself.

half words

I guess this is the kind of sex I have always known I was looking for (all the others guys were either too scared to open their mouths or didn't think I was worth it) and now what? It's still just sex, the best kind there is, but "just" that.

I know it sounds damn stupid to say "you make me feel special", but it's not that... I have always known I was special*, I guess I just got use to people not realizing that

I hope you keep asking "and you?" and smiling at me, and that we get to do this again... And that's it, it's not right to hope for anything else, I know.



*that's so typical of my star sign.

to die on a sunday [fiction]

Everytime the lady with too much make up from the flight company asks for a name and contact number of a person in case of a accident, she gives the details of the last guy she slept with. Most of the time that's all the information she has about them, and she will never user it again. She's happy it can be of use one last time, to fill a stupid bureaucracy, so she will give it freely.

He will be the first to know, and think about her one more time.

And because if he had asked, she would have stayed another day.

thank you for that

You were EXACTLY what I needed!

blind

I can't figure out whether a light has just been switched on or off.
Were you ever that beautiful, or was it me? Are you still just as lovely, except I can't see it anymore?

You look so different, now that I don't feel the same.

Weight

The anger is gone it seems...
And I don't dare ask myself why,
That means I'm stronger or weaker?

I knew this would happen.

Who am I kidding.
I didn't know. I expected something else.

This too shall pass

we are stronger.

offline for you,sweet.

I understand that things to you are hard..
I really do. .
but well,they are hard for me too..and you can count with my help...and i..I have to do all by myself.
So i don´t want to help you ,it´s no because i´m selfish it´s because you are.

riddle me this

I can write in code, too. But I won't.
I hope you're not enough of an asshole to ruin our friendship. I hope you believe the things you quote. I hope I am not being an idiot for believing you again and again. If you are giving me false hope, STOP immediately.

But I can tell you one thing, and I am 100% sure of this, with no uncertain hopes: if you hurt me, it is really YOUR loss. I'll be back on my feet in no time, and you'll never know what you missed.

intuition

Animals know so much based on their instincts. Migrating birds fly south every winter. Sea turtles lay their eggs on the same beach where they were born. So many elephants go to the same graveyard to die. They all know where to go. They know when and where to go back. They know what to do, and how to do it.

How did we, as a species, "learn" to ignore our instincts, and how can we, as individuals, reconnect with them?

love is a losing game.

I don´t mind about what you think is important,what to do,what to complain,say adore..
because i can´t play ,i can´t win..this could kill me and i like what i have done to myself.
I won´t play.But I will expect until..you lose sense for me
or better... when love or another demon appears for us.
and then,babe,we will know how to use the darts with pleasure.

not very punk rock

It's one thing for your trusted friends to know your alimentary habits, but it's something completely different when a good chunk of your class knows how much you really love sugar.

me and the others

I try to convince myself that it's all about me liking myself the way I am.
But the truth, I think, is that it's about other people liking me the way I am.



And when they don't.
Then what.

you,me and the others.

why do you have so many girls around you?
I don´t like play and i totally hate group´s activity .
argh.

cleavage

Should I learn to be that kind of girl? If I learned, I would probably win more often than I do. It's been like this forever... But I guess I'll stick with being me. It's what I do best, and I for one have learned to like it. If some guys don't, well, fuck them. I'll find others who do. But when my friends don't like it, it hurts a little bit.

now let's go get drunk

I love you!
I know things will be good soon, but it's one of those things I know but cannot prove.

actually

I'm officially heart broken, fuck not existing any god.

Apparently having really low expectations and trying to make everything to be easy to talk about isn't working out.

Nun

I have found the fastest cure to love frustationst: Dawkins.

cum way with me.

I just wanna sex, nothing more.
i wanna have sex and if is okey for you...i will put my pants so quickly that you wouldn´t have time to open your eyes after came.
it ´s ok for you? Because if can be
i ´m free friday after 10 pm.

cum ( don´t have the latin signification here isn´t "with" ...it´s just..one nite stand )

I know your skin, I know the way these things begin

It won't do, to dream of caramel,
to think of cinnamon, and long for you.

So goodbye, sweet appetite
no single bite could satisfy...

you and me were meant to be

I don´t know what means when you say "we"?
we?
there´s you...sometimes there was you and me in the same place at same time..
but there isn´t us


you never was there for me..
and i´m not talking about Dylan

being ironic

I hate when guys are way better than me in bed.

The dick is on the table.

We've been going out, and making out and hanging out, for a while now.
it's been great.
Suddenly everything get's complicated.
Sex sucks.

sunofabitch

an stupid girl?
franklin ,my dear,i don´t give a damn
the next time...Try one that´s intelligent..
don´t know..
may be this way i can think how a person can be sweet,smart and lovely ..exactly as you are

being friends

When it rains, it pours.

Where are you?

Sometimes I get upset too.

the power of fooling myself

The Americans have spoken. The Stars have spoken. The Voice Of Reason has spoken.

I remain unconvinced.

dance with me my old friend

I want to cry and feel your hug and your words. And I can't believe I still feel like this with you after all these years. You are so precious.

culture clash?

I don't understand dates.

Change of the seasons

"If you were the winter, I know I'd be the snow

Just as long as you were with me, let the cold winds blow"

creative sex

art makes me horny

hostess

shit.

ok, then.

soldier praying for war

So much of what we are is what people feel for us.

good morning

She has to talk to someone, but it shouldn't be me. I don't know what else to say without hating everyone involved. And I end up involved. And hating.

Maybe all men are self-centered assholes and all women are idiots, even if my life tries to prove me otherwise. Maybe it's not all of them. Maybe I am a self-centered asshole and an idiot. Maybe he is just an idiot and she is an idiot too.

Meanwhile, I shouldn't be focusing on this, but I can't help it. It shouldn't be MY problem, I have problems of my own. How much further will I have to run to get away from this? Maybe it's a good thing, if only to remind me never to go back. Maybe some things can never change.

Hopefully I can.

And you took the words out of my mouth. I'm so happy to be here with you.

But....maybe we should put it all behind, because you're not trying to take any more words out of my mind. and you are not here with me.

Sometimes you find someone interesting, and you talk to them often, and you're pretty sure they find you interesting as well. It's fun for a while. Then, for some reason, you start to notice they don't seem to find you interesting anymore.
And it doesn't even bother you that much... It's mainly that you don't know what to do with that realization.

Fucking in the Rain

User Friendly: That was nice. The kissing was specialy sweet.

soon: "Director's Cut"

she is leaving home

No more headaches no more heartbreaks
I'm gonna leave you where
I met you





I want somebody to call me honey

oh ,baby, i feel so down

last nite i wrote in some door ..in some bathroom that i love him...
i just know this because today I couldn´t use my eyeliner ...
what a shame!

Change of habit

When we are discussing our relationship. (I don´t know how I can call our relation )
In this discussion , he said to me that we fuck for habit, I said that we fuck for insistence
I don´t usually swallow on Tuesdays and Thursdays after my morning orange juice
I should change my habits...and spit more times...



IN HIS FACE

Skyscraper

I'm tired of pop culture telling me love is something you find, when such a great thing as love could only be builded.

Big-Words & Good-Cook

If we give them each a number it should be less confusing.


[And I just realized the title of this post seems a lot more pornographic than it actually is!]

give me chocolate!

Even if it takes a while to kick in, you can always feel it in the end: rejection has an unmistakeably bitter aftertaste.

that's what I want

I know what I want.
You act like you don't. So do you, by the way. Actually, you too, come to think of it!

I am surrounded by confused men sending mixed messages. It makes no sense that women are supposed to be the complicated gender.

Guy number one tells me he loves me, then says the same to someone else. All I want is the truth.

Guy number two touches my thighs, then says the time isn't right. All I want is some fun.

Guy number three doesn't respond, but later looks deep into my eyes, and then disappears, and then touches my thighs (am I really misinterpreting all this thigh-touching that's been going on?). All I want is something casual.


You guys figure it out, and call me when you do, hoping I haven't changed my mind by then. Wouldn't it be nice...

knots

I wish I could have accepted your offer.

I wish I hadn't made a fool of myself. Or maybe I just wish you had accepted my offer.

I wish I could offer you more at this moment.

I wish you would wake up now, and take a walk with me, and tell me nice things.

When you say all those lovely things, I believe you. Later I develop doubts.

Ok, not now. But maybe later?

No, not now, baby. But definitely later.

t-shirt deeds

We shouldn't have been kissing.
We won't be lovers.

And now I feel like you owe me something, how silly of me.

signature

sometimes,not always.. just sometimes I think you´re a really good kisser
because always,not sometimes,always we kissed i felt that my soul have been kissed too,i know that´s sounds stupid,really stupid...but it´s true.
And i know that more stupid of what i´m saying it´s that i could do almost everything to kiss you again
everything.
but sometimes ,sometimes you just have to walk away...

not a contract

A kiss is not a contract, indeed. For better or for worse.
But sometimes it's good to get some perspective and a little reality check.

Actually, I think "good" isn't the right word.

not a contract

I want a kiss without love, for a change.

t-shirt

We should have been lovers

I just want to kiss anyone as soon as possible so I don't have the urge to kiss you when I see you. Maybe the urge will be there anyway – but I really don't want to go through that again.

script

men don't think, they just react.

t-shirt

Can't we be just friends?

Sure we can.

Damn it.

i make love just like a womam..but i break just like a little girl

I just wish things were diferent...
but the guys that i spent the night together always hurt me more...
how can i be more...more...you know...more cool about those things?
love and fuck aren´t just the same four-letter word?

whatever

I'm tired of being alone and I'm tired of people

that's why I love her

I thought I was the optimist one, but she's the one helping me see the bright side of life.

but i´m sorry i don´t pray that way

i saw that you saw me

"once i ran to you
now i´ll run from you"

You ´ll expect anything from Santa Claus?
i think you shouldn´t...

I slept with the devil and i think that i ´m in love
has phone in hell?

it's not a figure of speech (almost)

When he smiles at me my underwear ACTUALLY falls off!!

Compliment

As I'm listening to the bells of the cathedral I am thinking of your voice and how your smile looks like a whisper.

slobbering

In my dreams, you're always a really bad kisser.

He is an idiot, but I love(it?)
not him,only love

as she fed the seeds to the bird resting in her shoulder [not so passe]

Fish are meant to stay quiet and get eaten. But noooo, instead of doing what they are suppose to do, they talk, and I don't mean babbling about some kind of seaweed, I mean having great knowledge about subjects close to your heart. And making cute little remarks, touching you just the way you like and out-of-the-fucking-nowhere looking into the eye. Honestly Stop! STOP! Fucking Stop! I said: STOP! You just get drunk with power, don't ya? And it not just plain power, bossing people around, is that specific power to known someone would do anything to be by your side. Just stop

Honey

a little dust never stopped me none
he liked my shoes i kept them on
sometimes i can hold my tongue, sometimes not
when you just skip-to-loo, my darlin'
and you know what you're doin' so don't even

you're just too used to my honey, now
you're just too used to my honey

and i think i could leave your world
if she was the better girl
so when we died i tried to bribe the undertaker
'cause i'm not sure what you're doin' or the reasons

you're just too used to my honey, now
you're just too used to my honey
hey, yeah...you're just to used to my honey, now

don't bother coming down
i made a friend of the western sky
don't bother coming down
you always like your babies tight

turn back one last time, love to watch those cowboys ride
but cowboys know cowgirls ride on the indian side
and you know what you're doin' so don't even

you're just too used to my honey, now
you're just too used to my honey
hey, yeah...you're just too used to my honey
you're just to used to my honey, now

that's the only possible explanation

I'm sure didn't sent me a message because his thumbs are paralised or something. And he didn't call because he lost his voice. You know, from crying my name in his sleep.